I’ve had a really productive day already. The time is only 3:57 PM and I’ve done a lot of things. I woke up a little before 9:00 AM, and that’s a first for me! The weather has been very shifting, from sunny to rainy to minor blizzard. Fascinating. First I had a meeting with two caseworkers from the local authority concerning my personal assistance. I really dreaded it. I don’t know why, it was more a formality than anything else, but I have such bad experience with the local authority from back home. I’m always anticipating a knife in my back the second I turn around – not a very healthy attitude, but it’s the bad experience I tell you. The meeting went well, or at least I think it did, and as I already knew it was mostly a formality. Feels good to have it out of the way, so the next thing on my agenda is to try to obtain an answer regarding my “little secret”. God, I hate waiting. I can’t understand why everything has to go so slowly? I need an answer, damnit.

Apart from all that we’ve finally managed to clear the living room of boxes. Yes, after living here for seven months we still had three cardboard boxes standing behind the couch, and they’ve been bugging us both for a long time. Now they’re all gone, and everything that was in them has either been thrown away, or put in its correct place. I even found my two Guinness mugs which I bought when I was in Dublin in 2006! Sometimes I think it would have been better just to throw away the boxes without looking in them first, but I would be throwing away a lot of things with memories attached to them – and I couldn’t handle that. I’m a collector, or maybe a hoarder rather. Let’s just blame it on the fact that I had to move from a house to an apartment, downgrading my space, which meant a lot less room to clutter up. And I’m not even a fan of knick-knacks, trinkets or ornaments!

It’s been a long day, so I’m going to bed.
Happy 17th birthday, Aleksander! Best wishes on your day.

Imagine that, I’ve actually written 901 posts counting this one. Impressive!

Just to give a little update on myself, I’m happy to announce that I’m finally feeling better. It’s been one of those weeks.. consisting of intense pain in my neck, headaches which felt like my skull was being crushed – slowly and calculated, throwing up, seeing the underneath of our bed covers, being bored to death and sleeping. Oh, and painkillers. Lots of painkillers. Did I mention that some painkillers cause nausea? At least with me, so I had to choose between two evils, and I decided that it would be better to be relieved of some pain for a few hours and vomit from the medicine, instead of feeling suicidal from the pain. Neat! It’s on days like these I’m forever thankful that I have parents that care, friends that care, a boyfriend who loves me and takes care of me, and a little dog who generally just loves everyone – including me. That certainly keeps my spirit up, no matter how much pain I’m in. Now I’m finally up and about again, and I’ve been off the heavy painkillers for two days – which is good. I’m still feeling a little nauseous, and like I have an aura of a possible headache hanging over me, but I’m hoping that I’ll feel even better tomorrow. Keep those fingers crossed!

I haven’t been online much lately, mostly just from my iPhone now and then to check my e-mail and Twitter, so the abstinence started to hit me hard. So I’ve been doing all kinds of stuff online today, including opening up a Flickr account for myself. I wanted a quick and easy way of uploading my images, mainly those of Theo, so I could share them with everyone who wants to see him develop. I used to have a gallery online with all sorts of pictures from vacations and such, but it kinda drowned in spam comments, so I ended up deleting the whole thing. Anyway, Flickr works absolutely perfect!

Mr. Postman also came knocking today. Finally! He brought me a very nice black box from Sigma Makeup, but I’ll get back to that later in an individual post. This time the package took 11 working days, which is a little longer than I’m used to, but still not bad at all. I haven’t seen any sign of my shipment from Asos, where I ordered that incredibly cute little coin purse, and it’s already been 13 working days. The one week I really needed some mail to cheer me up nothing arrives. Sucks!

Anyway, I’m alive.
Just wanted to let you all know.

Headache? An infernal one.

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.

Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)

I think I have to stop having opinions about everything. Or at least stop sharing my opinions with people. Seems like some people think it’s rude to have other opinions than themselves. Gah, I’m so sick of people. Why the hell do they insist on occupying a space on the Internet if they don’t have the ability to accept advice, and listen to other people’s opinions without taking it as a personal insult? I’m not out to insult anyone when I share my opinions on the web, I’m just looking to share experiences, something I would be grateful for myself. Maybe I should just stop commenting in other blogs, and stick to my own, maybe that would be better. At least here I can act like a bitch if someone tells me that they disagree with me, and kick their asses. Literally. When I grow up I’ll write and pass a law that will ban certain people from using the Internet at all. Now, that will be the day!

Tonight I’ve made a serious (and kinda scary) decision about my upcoming future. It was difficult to land upon the final decision, but when it was done I felt relief. That’s the feeling I was going for, right? Relief? Felt good. Like a ton of bricks had been lifted of my shoulders. Oh, I see. Maybe I finally managed to follow my gut feeling, and this is what it feels like? I’m not gonna tell you what I’m talking about today, maybe next week. I just want it to be a done deal before I spill my little secret.

I have postponed this post for quite some time now, mainly because I’m taking it as a personal failure. I’m sure some of you are wondering how school’s going, since I haven’t mentioned it for a while now, and I regret having to tell you that I dropped out late this fall. As I’ve said a million times before, I absolutely hate to give up on something that I’ve started. I feel like a failure. Now, there’s a reason behind my quitting, and that reason was the goddamn swine flu. Due to my situation I can’t be around people with potentially contagious diseases that affects the lungs and air ways, and so I couldn’t risk catching it. The administration was so understanding to my situation that they e-mailed me continuous updates from week to week with information about new cases, and after having stayed away from school for more than a month I realized that I had missed too much of the beginning of this first semester to continue. The swine flu was heading back for round two, and I didn’t know what else to do – so my solution was to just quit. Thankfully I reached an understanding with both NAV (who’s paying for my education) and NKF, so I’m able to start back up this fall. Now I’m just hoping that I’ll be able to, having enough capable assistants and all, and no more flu or other contagious illnesses, so I can finally reach my goal of becoming a kick-ass graphic designer come 2012.

With a little luck I’ll graduate just in time for the end of the world.